Sometimes i just wanna give up…i think that i’ll never be skinny and pretty and that i’ll just be a fat monster for the rest of my life. I’m trying so hard to get away from that mentality and be happy with my body. Everyday is a struggle to love myself because i can’t accept myself yet. Maybe it’s the media or my friends or the fact that no guy ever notices me. I know that i should love myself because i’m beautiful in my own way, but it just gets so hard sometimes you know ? Like, i know that someday the right guy will come along, but seeing all my friends being happy with their boyfriends makes me feel so alone. It’s easier to just eat…i don’t know…fast food and stop giving a crap about my health, but i don’t wanna do that. It’s so hard sometimes to keep myself motivated, but i have to remember that i’m going this for myself and not anybody else. It’s hard feeling less of a person just because of how much you weight and that’s how i feel sometimes. Sorry for this long rant…
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